It’s funny the way the world works. You hope some things will happen and some things will not. And out of those two options, you get something you didn’t even see coming. Something that could not have been predicted. You get phased by this event. Is it bad? Is it good? It’s an opportunity. And you have to choose how you are going to use that opportunity. Are you going to grow from it, or are you going to let it define you. A single moment shouldn’t define you.

Every second is a moment, and every moment is an opportunity.

Every second that you are alive you are consciously making decisions. You have to make sure that those decisions are helping you get to where you want to be. Where ever that may be. There is a high chance that you play a role in someones path. And if that is so, then that means your two paths intersect. So if you do not follow your path, then they can not fulfill theirs. You have an effect on more people than you think. Some of them, you won’t even know.

You just have to stay on your path.

Just keep on pushing forward. Everything happens for a reason. Every struggle or challenge is an opportunity to get better. How will you know if you are on the right path or not? Synchronicity. If you haven’t noticed them yet, then you must expand your mind.

Eye believe that you will find your way

One day…
That pain will end
The sorrow no more
It’ll be over.

One day…
We will be together
Free as can be
Love will be in the air.

One day…
We will live together
And then say our vows
Nothing has been better.

One day…
The space we live in will fill with children
Loving them dearly
They experience their childhood.

One day…
History will repeat
You will recognize the pattern
Will you succumb to it?

One day…
You fear you have become him
Then you stop
You do what he never did.

One day…
You will realize you are doing it right
And thankful you have learned
You begin to feel content once more.

One day…
You will feel stuck between a rock and a hard place
Confused, you start to wander
Looking for that Heaven on Earth.

One day…
You still feel confined
You slip away from life’s pattern
The speed of time slows.

One day…
You will feel even more lost then before
And you realize that you must travel back to your second sun
For there is always a rainbow after the rain.

One day…
You will realize that you already had everything you needed
Everything to be happy
Everything you will ever need.

And on that day…
You will be truly happy.

Do you ever feel like your life has a slight repetition to it?

Not necessarily an obvious, right to the dot repetition, but events or feelings happening periodically? I feel like if you really think about it then you can find something that does as well, or something that has. And if it is still going on, then that must mean something isn’t changing. Someone relating to it isn’t learning. That could be you, that could be a friend, a work partner, a relationship partner. Now this repetition might not be negative. Or even if you see it as negative it isn’t really a negative.

He is putting this situation, or feeling back into your life over and over again, to help someone.

That someone might be you. Help someone learn. They didn’t learn the first time so you have to go through it again. Again and again until you change something and the problem goes away. If you notice a “negative” pattern in your life, approach it differently. Change something up. You cant keep doing the same experiment and hope for different results every time. You have to have a control, independent, and dependent variable(s). The problem is the control. The thing that stays the same or constant in the experiment a.k.a your life. Now you have to be the independent variable. The thing that changes.

Take control of your experiment.

You have to make a change if you want things to get better. Make a different decision. The outcome is the dependent variable. The goal is to change that. Change the outcome. I am trying to practice what I preach, and I am waiting to see if the outcome will be different this time.

Solitary confinement
Confined in my own mind
Mind as wild as a storm
Storm into the unknown
Unknowingly all knowing
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Know what you want to be
Be with who you wish
Wish for freedom
Free yourself internally
Internal pain
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Pained by the ignorance
Ignore the messages
Message yourself
Your own conscience
Consciously make decisions
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Decide how you escape
Escape the winds
Wind up in the eye
I am released
Release all that is inside
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Outside of my body
Embodying the energy
Energize your surrounding
Surround yourself with nature
Nurture yourself in and out
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Out of myself
One’s self in danger
Endangering all else
Elsewhere is where I must go
Go to keep others safe
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Safe from I
I who beholds the power
Power above all other
Other than God himself
Thyself is harmful
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Harming thoughts
What I thought was good
Good goes to negative
Negative motion
Moving back into confinement

If I choose one
The other will fall
And they will be done
No one left to call
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It feels like I cant breathe. I just want to release the pressure. The weight, off my chest. But if I breath, someone else can’t. If I make a decision, someone hurts.
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My breathing
Nonexistant
I’m losing feeling
In an instant
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But if I just stay here, I can spare the others. But even that isn’t true. Doing nothing breaks down a rock. My rock.
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Breathe they tell me
No price to pay
There is always a fee
I’ll just have to pray
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Pray that maybe that “hard place” will move on it’s own. Without me having to push it away.
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I feel helpless
Squished beyond belief
Someone be selfless
That would be my relief
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In reality, how things are right now. Is probably the best option.
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Just keep holding it
Just a bit more
Until someone else can take a hit
Remember who you are doing this for
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Who I am doing it for? Why my rainbow after the rain. My heaven on Earth. My second sun.

I want to just walk out the door and keep walking. I want to feel the unpredictability that is life. I want to keep walking until I know where I am going, then stop going there. I want to find new places. I want to think differently. I want to see things differently. I want others to enjoy the experience with me, while experiencing it all differently. I want to tell grand stories of my adventures. I want to make small experiences seem mesmerizing. I want to enjoy everything tenfold, while still being as content as I was before. I want to get out of my own mind.

I want to stop wanting all of these things.

The Dark is a dangerous place
It alters who I want to be
I am in empty space
Not wanting to live happily
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The Light is a helping hand
Helps me escape the Dark’s cellar
Now I can stand
The Light can’t hold me forever
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Back to where I started
Back into the dark
I feel empty hearted
This will leave a mark
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But If someone is with me it isn’t that bad
It can make all the difference
Who is my closest comrade
What is their significance
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In the darkest night
She is with me
Shining so bright
Now I can see
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You are my second sun
My world has been lightened
The darkness is almost overrun
There is no need to be frightened

When you come into view
I can’t help but stare
A million feelings come from you
Can make me happy from anywhere
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You walk towards me
And you smile the biggest smile
So worry free
Myself smiling all the while
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We come into an embrace
And I don’t want to let go
In between us there is no space
No thoughts of tomorrow
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As we walk side by side
Hand in hand
My feelings are amplified
The experience is already grand
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You laugh as we talk
It’s the sweetest sound of them all
Our arms interlock
The chance of letting go is small
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We take seat next to each other
Next we share a kiss
And then another
We are full of bliss
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You would think it couldn’t get any more exceptional
But life has a way of doing things
It feels almost fictional
We’ve grown our wings
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We can now fly away from this place
To one with no stress
For they can not chase
We can leave this mess
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To Heaven we fly
We will be rewarded
But when we came down from the sky
We were back to where we had started
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Because when we are connected
It is Heaven on Earth
For that has been neglected
This will be our rebirth

It’s weird how we perceive time.

How we feel in time. How time feels in different situations. Time is moving at a constant rate, yet we feel like it speeds up, and slows down. Today, I was in class, and I checked the time. Three minutes until school ended. It felt like I was waiting for at least 10 minutes. When the bell finally rings, I rush out of the classroom. Walk around, say by to some friends, and I check the time again. It had been three minutes since the bell had rang. Yet, at that time, it felt as if it had only been thirty seconds. It’s strange how when you are with someone that you want to be around, time flies. But in those situations, you wish that it felt like forever. But in situations that you don’t want to be in, you want to go by fast. Get it over with. But it takes so long. It’s funny how that works.

So, if you can change your mindset on a situation, can you change the speed at which time moves?

Obviously not literally change it, but how you perceive, and feel it. Could you “control” how fast time moves? Because if you change your mindset, to that of wanting to be wherever you are, it will go faster. The world how it is, would  not want anyone to have this ability. Because if you apply logic to what I just said, you would know that it doesn’t work. This is how I said it. You don’t want to go somewhere, change your mindset, goes by faster. But, if you change your mindset, to that of wanting to be there, then you want to be in that situation, then it would go by fast, but now that you like it, you don’t want it to. It is quite unfortunate how this works, i’m sure we would all want to be able to control time itself.

What would life be like if we could do that?

Spending time with loved ones, and being able to extend it to make it feel like forever. Going to a boring meeting, make it feel like seconds. Make a single moment, last a lifetime. But we are not allowed to have control over such a great and almighty thing. Because if you could control time, it would take away a lot of life’s meaning. Not having to savor time, be thankful for what you had, and really appreciate it. So really appreciate  the time you have with the people you love while it lasts.

Storms will come
With the rain
You may be numb
But there will still be pain
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The winds come crashing in
Those feeling can not be stopped
Cover them up with that grin
With a frown it will be swapped
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